Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Struggle

Mood:  frustrated, stressed.
Hating:  midterms.
Loving:  Toby Lightman.
Listening to:  my Documentary Film and Television professor. Being of the social networking generation, I multi-task well; at least I believe I do.

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Everyday

Everyday is a struggle
between what I want to say, and what I should keep to myself
And the words that do leave my lips
Well, they don't hurt me
But they hurt everyone else


So I find myself in need of a pause
I'm not sure why but I think that it's because
of this desire to be what others want me to be
Which is nothing close to me


But I'll see better when the smoke clears, when the smoke clears inside my head
And I can listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything that I've said
All that remains is me and who I am at the end of the of the day
And this happens everyday


Everyday is a battle
between what I want to know and what I don't want to figure out
But they're still hovering here, in these dark thoughts of mine
That you know I can't live without


So I find myself in need of a pause
I'm not sure why but I think that it's because
of this desire to be what others want me to be
Which is nothing close to me


But I'll see better when the smoke clears, when the smoke clears inside my head
And I can listen when the screaming doesn't repeat everything that I've said
All that remains is me and who I am at the end of the day
And this happens everyday...

1 comment:

JY said...

nothing in life is perfect. by definition a balanced life is one of strife and joy. remember that where you are is temporary, and that so long as you aspire to be who you are, despite all the hardships that come with it, the truth and beauty of that will shine through.

I can tell you've a strong spirit, and a stone mind, learn to be a little more flexible with what the world throws at you, and maybe instead of screaming you can hear soft winds that motivate you to continue to grow and be better.

stay amazing.